So I was finally able to meet up with one of my studio directors for some at home posture clinic action. I WAS SOOOOOOOOO NERVOUS!!!!!!!! But she said I did really really well and that she wasn't worried about me and the dialogue at all. She knows I will learn it good and fast. She wants me to practice saying everything really fast so that I can get the timing a little better. She said if that was me nervous then I'm going to be fine. That's what my teacher friend Sara said too. That is comforting to hear. Soon I will be learning and manning the front desk so that I won't have to learn all that when I get back from TT. All I will have to focus on is teaching. I sure do like the sound of that. As it stands right now their schedule is pretty full with teachers and what not. If I was going to try and teach full time now it wouldn't happen. full time teaching for me would mean anything 8 classes or above. But who knows what will be in store come holiday time after graduation. I sure as hell hope that I won't have to work at Swedish Medical Center ever again. But I'm preparing myself for the unfortunate. It's better that way. I know that within a year I will be able to teach full time and nothing else. That I can most def do.
There's a lot of talk on the fall TT board about our anxieties about upcoming teacher training. No doubt I'm super duper nervous. Most of that is just not knowing what to expect. But knowing that I have a killer roomie is making it all the more easier to swallow. We are planning on getting some items that we can use to cook together. While she eats meat and I do not I'm sure we won't have a problem figuring it out. I'm not one of those grossed out by meat vegetarians. Meat is just something I don't eat but understand a person's own right to choose to eat it or not. Anyways. Having her as a support person already has been so helpful. It really is going to make this journey all the more meaningful to me. I will have my partner at home as a support person always, but to have a live in the flesh person going through the same thing is really different.
Sure, I have anxieties about the rumored heat or drawn out 2 hours plus classes with Boss himself. But right now it sounds so awesome! What a once in a lifetime experience for sure! Even though it seems like the whole point of training is boot camp style feeling like a newbie yoga classes, dialogue memorization and sleep deprivation; it still sounds awesome and I'm so stoked to start our journey. When you pole a group of teachers about their teacher training experience you will get a range of experiences. Some like it, some hate it, some love it and some are indifferent about it. One recent trainee describe it as uselessly hard. That may be. It is totally true that they can structure the training experience a whole heck of a lot differently. But they don't. I'm expecting teacher training to be full of a lot of unanswered questions that will be answered more or less on the job. Not to expect to learn how to properly time a class or transition throughout the postures. And that's ok. What I want from teacher training is a certificate to teach Bikram yoga anywhere in the world. And I've got to jump through their hoops to get it. And I will with my smiling happy face.
All that being said, it sounds so AWESOME to have my life centered around everything yoga and surviving bollywood movies. Not that I have a terribly hard life or anything. On the contrary. I'm so in love with life right now it's ridiculous. Life is super excellent right now. Teacher training often feels selfish to me. I have never gone on a vacation from life like this before. Even though he volunteered to take care of all the day to day stuff while I'm gone, I can't help but feel guilty at times for leaving my partner for 9 weeks! But it's part of my process. To think of myself first is not something that comes naturally to me. So TT will be a good exercise in that regard. Also not worrying or thinking about like what's for dinner and all that stuff is going to be different. I can't wait to not have to do housework.
That half marathon got me all sick this past week. Yoga def helped me feel better sooner and I'm thankful to be back on my feet and at work. I had a really interesting class the other day while I was really sick. It was the hardest in a lllllooooonnnnngggggg time for me. I had to sit out of the second set of awkward just to give you a little perspective of how it went for me. Hahahaha. But I survived, I recovered and I feel a shit ton better! Oh and let the work day count down begin!!!!! Only 26 more days left of work. Hell yes!!!!!